Last week I decided that only a miracle from Allah SWT would make me stay in this country. The date I have given myself to leave is January 25th. If this place doesn't explode into a revolution or civil war. whichever comes first will be my decision maker. So I've got A) I simply go HOME to civilization; B) A miracle from Allah appears before my eyes and I have another option; C) this place goes nuttier than it already is and they do start their 2nd revolution in 24 months.
I'm tired of the culture clash as these people do not bend or adjust nor accept others. They argue over everything even though you may be right. It's too dirty, it's complete havoc everywhere you go, there are no laws that are followed, the population is naturally disobedient and unruly...and the list is endless. I asked a friend for help and what do I get....a month of 'yes, this weekend'...4 weekends have past and still no help. In this country the word 'yes' means 'go away and NO'. Again with the liars. You are on your very own here and you either sink or swim but no one and I mean no one will bother to give you any help at all. it's all a facade that they want to help you. it's only an empty offer to save face and make themselves look hospitable. The truth of the matter is that no one is honest and everyone is selfish. At least at home I know how to read the language, I know who my friends are, I know where I stand. I know how to function. My time here is finished. I have honorably failed at my attempt to start a life in a country that I should never have come to. There's nothing here but stress and loneliness. It's too hard to start in your 30's, maybe if I were in my 20's this would have been easier but this isn't the case.
Again, I've had more than I can handle.
I'm tired of the culture clash as these people do not bend or adjust nor accept others. They argue over everything even though you may be right. It's too dirty, it's complete havoc everywhere you go, there are no laws that are followed, the population is naturally disobedient and unruly...and the list is endless. I asked a friend for help and what do I get....a month of 'yes, this weekend'...4 weekends have past and still no help. In this country the word 'yes' means 'go away and NO'. Again with the liars. You are on your very own here and you either sink or swim but no one and I mean no one will bother to give you any help at all. it's all a facade that they want to help you. it's only an empty offer to save face and make themselves look hospitable. The truth of the matter is that no one is honest and everyone is selfish. At least at home I know how to read the language, I know who my friends are, I know where I stand. I know how to function. My time here is finished. I have honorably failed at my attempt to start a life in a country that I should never have come to. There's nothing here but stress and loneliness. It's too hard to start in your 30's, maybe if I were in my 20's this would have been easier but this isn't the case.
Again, I've had more than I can handle.
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